Lasting Impressions

I wonder what my life would be like if I'd never met him. I wonder if my thoughts about myself and the world would have changed if.i had only been stronger. I wonder why life turned out this way. Why was I the one with the cheating backstabbing husband. I want to move on and find a way to see the good. But putting on the face every morning is becoming exhausting. Stop living in the past I was told. If you do then you won't be happy. However until the pain and betrayals gone I fear this is my life. Looking at him makes me ill.  Hearing his voice curdels my stomach and knowing I created a second human with him only makes it worse. He met someone - someone who he thinks it's going to be serious with. Good for him. Maybe I'm upset that we hadn't resolved all our issues and now it's about him and becoming a better person for himself and K, and the new girl. He said, we obviously weren't meant to be together then why did you ask me to marry you. People say, t...

And I'll keep wonderin' wonderin' and wonderin' - when will my life begin? She loves her mama's lemonade And hates the sound that goodbyes make She prays one day she'll find someone to need her   She swears that there's no difference Between the lies and compliments It's all the same if everybody leaves her   And every magazine tells her she's not good enough The pictures that she sees make her cry   She would change everything, everything, just ask her Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster She just needs someone to take her home   She's given boys what they want And tries to act nonchalant Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction   She never stays the same for long Assuming that she'll get it wrong Perfect only in her imperfection   She's not a drama queen She doesn't want to feel this way Only seventeen, but tired   She would change everything, everything, just ask her Caught i...