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Signed, Sealed, Delivered

87 days, $2,000+, multiple therapy sessions, and it's over. 5 1/2 years of promises to keep us together and it's over. Vows were never meant to be broken, but when they are, then what? What if you try your best to fix it, to try and make it better, to try and put it all behind you? Sometimes love is just not enough. Happiness is worth more to your life than just grinning and bearing it for the rest of your life. Trust is the foundation of marriage. Without trust, your foundation is weak, and could crumble at any moment.

I've thought about this day many times before. What it would feel like, would I really go through something like this that is so finite. There's no going back, there's no "undo" button, there's no do-overs. It's literally GAME OVER. Does this mean I get my lives back? Or is it a, "Do not pass go, Do not collect $200 dollars?" By the way, these are fantastic game analogies :)

But as one door is closed, locked and chained another door will open, I just need to find the right door this time. Door number 3 Bob....Tell her what's she's won! If only life were that simple.

Today is a sad day, but there is light and it feels a little less darker than other days. It was for the best interest for our futures and for our daughter. Happiness is truly the emotion that will get you through the day. Happiness helps you find your drive to get through each day and to not give up. Happiness is infectious and can be passed along as you meet people throughout the day.

It feels like there are so many unhappy people out there who just won't be truthful with themselves about how they feel. It's a status quo but they aren't happy where they are, what they are doing or who they are with. It's so much easier said than done, but finding true happiness can happen without having to leave the love of your life.

Each of us has been placed on this earth for a purpose and not just to increase their carbon footprint. There is a purpose, and there is meaning in every life. It may not be perfect all the time, but finding the happiness you deserve is truly just that. You deserve it.

   

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