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Don't Get To Comfortable - Another blank canvas, starting over AGAIN

Here we go again. I've been at my job for 3 weeks now. I'm enjoying it. Have a few concerns on how things are being operated in a training aspect but I figured it would change; this is only your first day.

As the weeks go on, I'm self motivated,  getting projects done and I'm feeling ready.  Ready to be in charge,  make some changes, game face on.

Not long after this I am called to an office.  When I haven't had much talking or interaction with this man since my start date I knew it likely wasn't going to be good. "shut the door " We have now entered a serious conversation.
*disappointed
*rule breaker
*unfixable
*failing to meet our expectations

What can I do to fix it? I ask. "I just don't know if there is anything. " he sits back in his chair and asks if I want to talk about anything else?  Do I have other concerns outside of work that I wanted to share?

No and no.  I've been here a few weeks,and  yes, I'm crying at this point. Are you going to be okay?  He asked.

I'm fine, as I shudder through tears.

24 Hours Later @4:23 p.m.
They parade their way into my office with a box in hand. I already know what's coming next. "We regret to inform you that today is your last day. You'll need to get your stuff" - box is then pushed towards me.

"There were expectations and those just weren't met.  It's just not a right fit. "

"I don't have anything, I say."  Remember,. I haven't even been here a month. And, I'm glad I grabbed my extra protien bars the night before.

Never once was there a detailed conversation on what expectations I wasn't meeting.  I knew something was up when I was working on a project that had my name on it earlier but was now replaced with the former public relations managers name.  Touche when they walked in with the box.

One of the female Staff  personnel walked me out and said, "thank you for keeping your composure and we do wish you the best in the future. " How encouraging after they just let you go.But obviously I have skills that can be utilized somewhere else.

Life goes on. My canvas is a lite bit more filled now with a house, new car, and no job. But things happen for a reason... Or so I say, and truly hope.
And my crazy life continues

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