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No Words

I have felt the need to post lately but have feared putting down words out for the world to see.

So for today this is it - There are no words to explain how I feel today.

I'm not a seeker for empathy or sympathy which is why I hate posting status updates on Facebook but I have to put it somewhere.

"Mama said there'd be days like this, days like this mama said." But I'm not ready for days like this. But this is my life moving forward. Like I said, there are no words to explain how I feel today.

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