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Hold On

Wilson Phillips said it best in their 1990's song, "Hold On," which topped the charts right after the ladies graduated high school. No, this is not just random information I have stored in my brain, I actually learned this from tonight's ABC Greatest Hits.

It's been a stressful few weeks with past feelings and anxiety skyrocketing. Trying to manage a full-time job, single mom, and an educational psychology online class I'm getting burnt out. Although these three priorities are going to continue to cause me stress I just wish this wasn't my new normal. I really miss having a partner to rely on. I miss having help when I've had a ridiculous day at work. Don't get me wrong, my family has been more than supportive this past year and I definitely couldn't do any or all of this without them. But having your parents for support is different having a true partner, and that's exactly what I'm looking for. I need someone who gets it. Who gets life and is ready to jump in with both feet. Maybe not like, let's get married in a month type of ready, but I need someone seasoned. Someone who knows how to be supportive. Someone I can talk about my past with and not feel like I'm totally unloading, because let's be honest, my past is a little messed up.

Lies, cheating, affairs, betrayal, emotional distress are just to name a few, and it's going to take one heck of a person to handle all of these issues. At least at this point in time I can clearly make light of my situation and make a little humor out of it. Maybe someone will find this funny if anyone actually reads this.

I realize that this is going to be a short post tonight, but the words of the song, "Hold On" resonated with me tonight while watching the show: " I know there is pain.....No one can change your life except for you.....Don't ever let anyone step all over you....Is it really fair to feel this way inside"

Like I've been telling myself over the last six months, I am strong, and I will get through this. I will be happy and I'm doing all of this for myself and to become the person I once was. I don't deserve to be treated with disrespect. I don't deserve to be stepped on and taken advantage of or be taken for advantage. 

If you've ever read my blog, you know that I'm a fan of song lyrics and feel that music is a way to heal the soul. So tonight, I leave you with these word from Wilson Phillips from their song, "Hold On"

I know there's pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don't ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?
Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day
You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin' your worries pass you by
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?
Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day
I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains
Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won't you tell me now
Hold on for one more day 'Cause
It's gonna go your way
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can't you change it this time
Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on


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