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Just about there - 36 Weeks

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, although I can't seem to get there fast enough. I know that I've been saying this for awhile now - but I am truly ready for this baby to come.

Sleeping at night is getting even more difficult than it was before. I feel like I'm constantly regurgitating my food and can never get comfortable.

We have moved once again! But this time is was a little less exhausting and time consuming since we only had to move what we were currently using.

In preparing my list for my hospital bag and things that I still need for the baby, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with all the loose ends. Still need to get the crib set up, find a place for the baby to sleep. The whole idea of using the pack and play bassinette isn't going to work with the amount of space that we have in our bedroom. I'm still in need of little pants, and I have to decide what bag I'm going to pack all of my stuff in. These things may seem trivial but this whole not knowing when this baby might decide to make its way into the world it the thing that's got me hung up.

I was talking with a good friend of mine who is also pregnant and expecting in February and has a 3 year old as well....she said, "Be prepared to not have control for the next 18+ years!" She has a very good and valid point.

The fact that I am about to lose all control over my life and someone else’s scares me a bit. I have no idea how this child will react to its new surroundings. I don't know if I'll be able to soothe the baby. Will it sleep more or less than a typical child? Will the baby have colic or certain allergies? Will I end up having a c-section regardless of the progress in labor?

I know that being a parent is accepting the fact that you have control over some things but not others. I should be thankful for this little miracle that is about to make my life so much better - but I'm scared to death.

My hubby and I were in a wedding last weekend and it was wonderful. I was exhausted by about 10pm and went to bed alone but it was such a beautiful day and we couldn't be happier for LB & TB!


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