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Love stories

Who doesn't love a romantic comedy with a happy ending? Or How to lose a guy in 10 days where at the end of the movie they realize their love for one another and ride across the bridge back into the city - happily ever after.

Except when you turn the channel to the Lifetime network movies are a bit different. Accused teenagers of murder,  cheating husbands, and weird neighbors with dark secrets.

The things in common with these movies is that Hollywood hopes to engage their audience and attempt to connect characters with their audience. They want to have their audience see themselves in the characters in these films. Maybe not all the Lifetime movies. But the things they leave out is that real life goes on after the 120 minutes of entertainment. Whether you related to the characters or storyline or not, life goes on. Real life. Real hurt. Real pain. Pain that can't be solved in 90 minutes. Pain that lives on deep within your body and you try to move on but the pain is still there. The betrayal, untrustworthy, lies, and whispers.

When will it go away? You try to move on because life doesn't stop because you're in pain. But who can you trust. Who can you talk to about your pain. You feel alone and put on a happy face to show that nothing has changed you,  yet you feel the ache, the burning pain deep inside your chest that never goes away.

Just move on, they say. But they don't feel the hurt every single day. Like someone you loved died. And in reality they have. There's disappointment, feelings of failure, despair, and loss of identity. When do you get that back.

Just move on they continue to say. But they don't feel the feelings you feel. You try to explain but no words can express how you truly feel. So then what?  Time heals all wounds?  Pray?  God will lead you in the right direction?

I don't know if there are any specific answers. I don't know what will make things better. And those who say,  "Just move on and stop living in the past," have never experienced true loss.

It's definitely not like the movies where everything works out fine.  But I know for sure someone always comes out on top - and they definitely already have.

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